_breakin down_

a cute anime abt love.. C=

2010-08-26T10:40:00.001-07:00

The song i would like to sing to her if she was my gf...

2010-08-26T03:24:00.000-07:00

This is inspirational!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-08-12T07:31:00.000-07:00

Sammi's testimony...

2010-08-09T09:45:00.000-07:00

We are God's Masterpiece !

2010-07-16T21:10:00.000-07:00

2010-07-16T21:08:00.001-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AhfUzodLRvk

Light Bulb....to another person's life =]

2010-07-16T09:40:00.000-07:00

just realize that knowing someone deeper really takes time and heart....and to get him/her to accept you tat will probably need to put in some more effort....but overall its the heart that counts...do everything with your heart and face people that way also, glorify God...then you will be respected and accepted...

sometimes we like to rush things....

like to ask why this why that...

without understanding the head and tail and stand at that person's point of view...

we are so selfish sometimes that we hurt people around us....

you may not realize it but in the end you yourself is responsible for your own action...

You will find out that things will turn better, people will start to open up to you...if you start to give a heart to listen and respect themmm.......=]

a friend tot me that...thx

_breakin down_: STupid MSN!!!!!

2010-05-27T03:39:00.002-07:00

_breakin down_: STupid MSN!!!!!

2010-05-27T03:39:00.001-07:00

_breakin down_: STupid MSN!!!!!

STupid MSN!!!!!

2010-05-27T03:31:00.000-07:00

i don knw why tis happen...and how this happen.....

my semail starts sending scammer all over and all my contact is loss!!!

bboys in the house...

2010-05-09T23:36:00.001-07:00

pathetic...

2010-04-06T06:38:00.000-07:00

haiz...fail my resit again....
somehow very heart broken....
when i 1st heard the news of my failure....the feeling is like God has leave you alone in this lonely and sinful world...
this is all because of my sucky attitude of not wanting to do my best in the exam...haiz..
i was wondering is i can just do "nyam nyam" past it...
but the reality is cruel....or should i say i didn't do my best...haiz...my bad...
anyways...after hearing i fail the test, another more devastating news was that the ptptn loan resist to lean the loan to me because of my result not passing 2.5...
i wana cry but i cnt...because crying cnt solve anything...
My mom told me the news of the ptptn loan, she was crush....her heart was broken just because of my selfishness....
my pathetic behaviors....
and my lazyness and giving tans of excuses on my friend dragging my time, so i cnt study and stuff.....
haiz...
sad...
sorrow...
but i thank God for one thing...
that is that he is still the God of caring, kind and faithful....
i knw he will continue to give me strength and give me comfort when i'm down...
but for now..all i wana do is study like never before....
(i gotta keep telling myself that) shit...can u see how pathetic i am....?
haiz...

my strenght to press on...

2010-03-28T23:38:00.000-07:00

The world God has made....

2010-03-22T05:06:00.000-07:00

this world is full of love,
full of beautiful things created by God,
He made all this things beautiful because he want us to have the most of his blessing....
Many times v choose to disobey God,
but he is always always there, backing us up, comforting us, protecting us, and also teaching us what is good and what is best for us....
But as a sinner, the devil have make this world upside down by telling us to do what is negative, whats not pleasing to God...
we fall for that, we tend to go with the world instead of His Words, His Teachings...
We search for our own happiness instead of Finding the happiness he had given to us.....
Sry father...

eventhough i'm writing this at this time....

i'm still struggling wit the same struggle i had over the years....

haiz....

am writing tis in the A.M

2009-11-29T14:35:00.000-08:00

is studying but is doing other things after a few minutes just cannot consentrate...
cz the Exam too easy?
but i tel myself that many people is praying for me,
i cannot give up!!
i must study!!
God already given me the Wisdom "so us it you !$%^$@#%^&%$#"
haiz...
STUDY!!!

Have you?

2009-11-29T14:03:00.000-08:00

I've been very lazy lately,
very slagging, doing nothing else other then sitting in front of the computer and play GG,
why can't i just do other things instead of DOTA or games?
is game that nice? its not very fun after your bored but you will still indulge in it,
then I'm thinking when is my revival day?
when is the day I'm really grown up to be a man and not play games anymore??
i wan to get serious with my life and to GOD because knowing that my life is not mine but
is by grace of GOD, and that he send his son to earth to shed his precious blood to BUY us back
From ETERNAL DEATH in HELL..
yesterday, the pastor Victor Wong, talks about the 2ND coming back of JESUS CHRIST,
but are we really ready to meet him when he comes back?
are we doing our best effort to be abstinence to the worldly things?
Or we are too indulge in the worldly things until we don realize it is a sin anymore?
Many a times we give excuse to our self saying that we needed help but no ones helping me,
another excuses comes out, Everyones doing the same thing whats wrong??
WE ALWAYS complain that its too hard, i cannot do it,
but have we even try before? i know i din try....
but excuses and ignoring theres a problem is not the way to solve things, God wants us to talk to him, tell the truth to him, share your sorrows with him, complain too him.
He wants to know more bout you!! he wants you to take him as the most important people in your life!
But, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, excuses after excuses excuses, SO MANY EXcuse to keep ourselfs away from GOD,
BUT HE IS EVERLASTING AND LOVING AND MOST IMPORTANTLY A FAITHFUL AND GOD FULL OF GRACE!! but it comes with a price and we have to pay it back on JUDGMENT DAY "The Day".
So, what do we do now? after knowing we should go back and cry for our loving God?
we go back to do our daily routine?
Yes, we continue read God's words, and?
then?
is that enough?
there is Only One Solution to this problem,
JESUS CHRIST!

AAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-12T09:29:00.000-08:00

found a very nnice video but cannot download..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SHIT!!

can u believe it?

2009-10-23T10:15:00.000-07:00

My olympic poster for LONDON olympics
i design it my self...in one day..^^
so, like it very much...and thanks daniel and wen chen for helping in designing my mascot^^

happy ^^

2009-10-23T07:03:00.000-07:00

To spend time with the family member that you're hard to understand is the best feeling of all!!
y most of the time is dad la, but what i'm trying to say is to listen to them grumble is quite nice sometimes, lol
this u may not agree but you have to experience it yourself,
anyway....main point please...
today, i know my dad better, i know all this bad attitudes etc etc.
but, today i see differents in him ^^ why?
He is a man who likes to figures things out himself and not ask anyone for idea or suggestions and critics because he cannot take critics, he'll kill u...soonner or later..lol
he is the best driver ever!! thank God for that, i think i will be very stress if he is sitting beside me if i'm the driver...what hedid is he drive through the jam!!
he skipped it!! totally!
he take another road that he found out himself and skipped the jam...how pro!
i wondered how can i ever do that...
but wat is presious is that we spended timed togather and i thank God for blessing me with wonderful parents even though sometimes its not that wonderful....
but sometimes its just our pride is hindering us to obey our parents,
in this recent year, i found out that if i would to obey my parents i have a DAMn
I mean it A DAMN GOOD DINNER THREAD man! and what my mum cook is the best!
I kinda figures out What God really want us to know if we where to obey our parents that's why he wrote it in the bible...
trust me obey your parents, anyway Is JUST HOUSEWORK!
so just do it quick and get it over with,
although i'm still trying but don give up
CZ GOD HAVEN GIVEN UP ON US YET!
and that's all for today,
am tires...but want to play games...lol
nite....(gone playing PROTOTYPE)

Love #4

2009-10-08T09:51:00.000-07:00

What can i say?when you're ignoring me?
what can i do? when i see that you need help...
what am i thinking? when i saw your with someone else..
What can i do?
What can i say?
What is left is empty..
Humans...
Love...
What is all this about?
What can i do?
When your in love with someone else?
What can i say so that i won't hurt your feelings...
What can i do....
All now left for me to do is to tell myself,
Study hard, do your best in every area,
stop caring, stop loving, stop noticing, and start to be independent....
There is nothing I can do apart from watching you smile from the corner...
hoping that you'll find your happiness...

Its there but not there....

2009-09-30T10:17:00.001-07:00

Love #3

2009-09-30T09:59:00.000-07:00

Anyone can have love but, is it the true love they're finding for? or it's just too good to look at, that makes you want to have it so desperately.
love can be fake if its not entrusted to GOD.
love can go wrong, love can be bought and love is Not sex!
when you trying to hold on to your feeling and not so easily express it,
your trying to get attention from that particular person,
hehe...

Love #2

2009-09-09T09:51:00.000-07:00

In many times, we thing love is something good, something that's romantic.
but in real life love is hard, love can be fake, love can be satisfying, love can be everything.
but when we ought to love someone we are comfortable with we can love that person in the way by doing things for him/her, caring for her.
What if the person who back stab you, who put you in a situation that you don't want to, who talks bad about you, i wonder....

Love #01

2009-07-17T19:11:00.000-07:00

Love is one thing that always makes my emotions turn...
In the bible said..''God is Love"
but what accually is love?
Some people sacrifice alot for their love ones but what they sacrified may not be appreciated by the other half...
When i love someone, i wanna be loved also...but many times i've fail to be a good lover cause of too busy doing my own stuff instead of sacrificing for my partner...
So what is love?
i'm on my way to discovering...
this is just the beggining...

To Be Continue...

The cruel Life

2009-07-14T08:27:00.000-07:00

Have you ever been abandon before?
Have you ever fell left out before?
Have your friends abandon you before?
have you try call every single one of your freind but none! none of them answered your call...?
I have.....
just then when i needed them they're all busy....by the way everyone is right?
Who care anyways...
God Do..!
and there is Hope...!
I wonder if they care for me or am i thinking too much? or am i just selfish and thinking that i'm the only one without care...?
I wonder...
but there is always reasons behind it...sometime good sometimes bad reasons...
or my attitude is too annoying?
am i a jerk or something?
I wonder...

Study Study Study...

2009-07-13T00:04:00.000-07:00

its me again, writing at this time because had to study...
hmm..ya that it..study...
gtg bb..

Transformers!!

2009-07-07T09:45:00.000-07:00

oo...man! Transformers!
Finally i watch it!!
it is the best movie i have ever watch besides IP man.
They are so many good scene in the show man, and Its damn funny!! and,
Megan fox is Smokin!!
can i scream for that....k, i will keep the scream untill the nxt point....
Heres the nxt point, when they transform! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i wana scream!! its so nice and drtailaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....
thank god that i finally gan got to watch it!!
Its a happy day...lolx
kla..nid to end this, sory too slp la me...cnt write anymore...

Tired....cz had eaten many durians..lolx

2009-07-05T09:55:00.000-07:00

I'm writing this at late nite...
where no one is around...
But God...XD
Amen..

Its all about THe King of fruit! "Durian"

2009-07-05T09:36:00.000-07:00

Manyak Chun Whe!!

This is how a rotten Durian looks like...XD

going home...down from the Durian mountain...Tired...T_T

Baby bird...jz born..abandon by their mom care by us people..lolx.

The painting of God....View from the mountain...

Another random durian...

The two big basket of Tongs where fill up with Durian earten by humans...alive~~

fill untill there is no more to fill....

The tool use to defeat many of the Kings.."The Parang Knife"

The mountain...
Today was a hapi day...i always hapi when i sing this song.."hapi day hapi day when Jesus wash your sins away" it reminds me of the Blessing that my heavenly father is giving me abandonly..XD

Hppy Happy...cz saw one HOT HOT chick!!

Durian with Hot chick!!

Imagine That!!

and the thing is She is Smokin'!!

Wohoo!!
but sadly cnt show u guy how hot is she...

How selfish am i....

2009-07-05T09:05:00.000-07:00

when i was thinking of dooing other things with my computer,
suddenly this stucks me..."she" pop out in my mind...
after i dump her...her life become a mess compared to last time...today,
I read her blog..its all baout our pass and presents,
i really am damn shit and selfish...
i left her....because i thought that was the way things are...
but when i read her blog..i finally know how it feels like to loss some body that you love...
and plan to get married with...
it started two years...
it when good at first but later on...
my love for her turns to an intention of getting not lonely and the love that she provide....
i take it for granted, without realising the feeling that she had for me...
every promise that i gave was a lie with a motive....
in order to get her to notice me i lied...
in order to get more love i lied again...
and lying kills....in order not to let people know what sin have we done to God or to people...
I lied....
white lies,
black lies...
whatever lies is a sin...and God cannot tolerate sin...
Back to my selfishness....
i doesn't care how she fells but I just want to reach my motive...
Many times i hate myself...
i hate myself for being not good enough...
not perfect enough to care or to take care of someone that i love or things that i ought to achive...
theres is this incident,
where,i say alot of good words and things that make that person fell more comfortable being with me...and all of that is Bullshit, its fake...i hate myself....
Its useless to say sorry if it has occured...
for that i cannot forgive myself...until now....
I'm still lying....
lying...
and lying....

2009-06-12T01:21:00.000-07:00

Temptation

2009-06-12T01:14:00.000-07:00

This is what hatred will turn you into...(monster)

2009-06-12T01:13:00.000-07:00

Gim...

2009-05-25T00:41:00.000-07:00

haiz...so damn tired today but 4 u i wil post ..lolx
going gim now.
thats all lolx..hehe
bathing in gym after gym hehe..damn nice...
love the sona there...

The day that i've said something wrong to my best friend...and all thing went wrong...

2009-05-06T05:10:00.000-07:00

SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT!!
SHIT man....y wud i say something like that man...
WAT THE HECK....NO MATTER HOW MUCH SORRY I'VE SAID...
NO MATTER HOW MUCH I EXPLAINED....I HAVE DONE WRONG THIS TIME...I HAVE DONE
THE SHITTEST THING EVER....THAT IS HURTING MY BEST FRIEND...
j.p.
WE WENT BADMINTON JUST NOW AND I DON KNOW Y I PLAY LIKE A SUPER DUPER
ssssuuuccckKKeerrr!!!!
SHIT AMN...I SKRU THINGS UP SO SHITLY THATI ALMOST MISS ALL THE HIT!!
WHAT THE HELL!!
HAIZ...JUST WANNA SAY SORRY TO HIM...AND THIS KIND OF SITUATION HAPPENS WHEN YOU sIn!!
GOD WILL PUNISH YOU BY PUNISHING THE PPL AROUND YOU TO MAKE YOU KNOW WHAT HAVE YOU DONE!! AND HOW BAD IS YOUR sIn!!
NOW...C I HURT SOMEONE D ONLY REALISE HOW SHITTY IS sINNING...
DON'T sIN!! DON'T GIVE THE DEVIL A TINY BITS OF CHANCE TO LET YOU FAIL GOD!!
DON'T GIVE CAHNCE!!
DON'T!!
ALTHOUGH YOU KNOW THAT GOD HOWEVER WILL FORGIVE BUT DON'T TAKE HIS FORGIVNESS FOR GRANTED!!
THIS WILL JUST HURT YOU, HURT GOD, AND hURT THE PEOPLE THAT YOU DON'T INTENT TO HURT...SO dON'T sIn!!
I'M FELLING DAMN SOHAI NOW MAN...
NOW...MY BEST FRIEND HAS A SCAR...THAT WILL FOREVER BE THERE....I HATE THIS MAN...HOW WON'D I HURT MY BEST FRIEND....!!
its the SUCKEST THING I'VE EVR DONE MAN..!!
shit shit shit!!
FUCK MYSELF MAN......
I WISH SOMEONE WOULD JUST STONE ME TO DEATH LA....
SOMEONE PLEASE KILL ME!!!
FUCK IT.....

2009-04-30T10:24:00.000-07:00

Today is my b.day its quite quiet this year...feel like somethings missing...but thx to those who wished me happy b.day ya...lov ya'll!! Yesterday i was rushing for my assignments but today manage to finish it, thanks to all the cell group members that helped me, when i said all it really means all..hehe if not i would have loss 5% of the mark of the assignment and the assignment was 15%...writing cause fell a bit sad, T_T....but i shoulden b because i already have Jesus Christ rite? Isn't that the best gif ever?? Hehehe...accually the title EMO is
last year title la, mainly y am i emo because not satisfied with the thing that i have la..
wanted more of it..like money..so that i can buy a laptop and get my car lisences..
haiz...guess i'll just have to w8 for god's will la...
merajuk oso useless la...
anyway yoou can't expect too much it will cause you to even fell more depresses..
try not to think about it la..
Tomorrow church camp!! whoooHHhooo!!
L_Y_LY...
lol...
this is when too much shit come out...
what in the__am i saying man..
haiz....college life might b difficult but it helps me to change my habbit la..
hehe..lazyness!! sign....
wanted to play dota....but nvm la.. blog 1st..
ok....
let me..
tel ya'll about a lame joke..
LAME starts with the letter (L) and ends with (E)...
ok...lame...
ya thats the lame joke..
lol..don hit me ya...

feeling tired...wan slp..blog nxt time oo...bb nitesz..

Weird college life...

2009-04-18T04:31:00.000-07:00

Did u all knw that...Tim Berners Lee is the Founder of the World Wide Web(WWW)? Interesting huh?
but not much people knw about it..
Accually that this thought of my that always thought through...
That is Blog is sometimes so hard to apply for our daily life because sometimes when i want to blog but there is no pc in front of me..so how?
haiz....hard right? then when there is a com in front of me, then i forgot what to write d..haiz..
someone mentioned if u don write paragrah its very hard for people to read ur text u knw?
so...lets make thng easier for our friend k? lolxxx...
anyway...todays T.U program is G.A(gurdian angel) this game of activity is quite bored accually....cz u nid to take care of some1 wor!! BUT u/me, doneven know how 2 take care urselfs how 2 take care of others??
Crap man...and 1 thing i notice in college is that many so called friends will only say hii and bye..
walao...and right,some gals r...they L.C until r...i'm new ma..den rite, she like always PIN on me wan wor sum how...there is once i 4gotten to return the gim card...n the penalthy 4 being not returning the gim card is rm2/hour...den the nxt morning i only get to return the card because the college close at 6pm,so i delay until the next day only return...(here comes the shit part bout it) then when i go n return rite,she was there doing don know what with the librarian, then i pass the gim card, den the libririan check the book......

The story wil countinue when i finish my meall..sory...

yeah...the story continue after my dinner, hehe thx 4 those who view my blog..appreciate it..
ok...where did i stopped ya?? i hav no idea....haiz lazy to continue la...nvm la, mainly is 1 of my college senior act very lanci that i hate la...that the summary la...

2008-11-13T23:13:00.000-08:00

...zz...hi there...1st time writing blog...lol....
jz nw rite....jz finish dota..loss again....but dude isnt it spm going on around?
yea...but....haiz...don knw la....
hmm....wat 2 do r ? so bored....