Love #01

Love is one thing that always makes my emotions turn...
In the bible said..''God is Love"
but what accually is love?
Some people sacrifice alot for their love ones but what they sacrified may not be appreciated by the other half...
When i love someone, i wanna be loved also...but many times i've fail to be a good lover cause of too busy doing my own stuff instead of sacrificing for my partner...
So what is love?
i'm on my way to discovering...
this is just the beggining...



To Be Continue...

The cruel Life

Have you ever been abandon before?
Have you ever fell left out before?
Have your friends abandon you before?
have you try call every single one of your freind but none! none of them answered your call...?
I have.....
just then when i needed them they're all busy....by the way everyone is right?
Who care anyways...
God Do..!
and there is Hope...!
I wonder if they care for me or am i thinking too much? or am i just selfish and thinking that i'm the only one without care...?
I wonder...
but there is always reasons behind it...sometime good sometimes bad reasons...
or my attitude is too annoying?
am i a jerk or something?
I wonder...

Study Study Study...

its me again, writing at this time because had to study...
hmm..ya that it..study...
gtg bb..

Transformers!!

oo...man! Transformers!
Finally i watch it!!
it is the best movie i have ever watch besides IP man.
They are so many good scene in the show man, and Its damn funny!! and,
Megan fox is Smokin!!
can i scream for that....k, i will keep the scream untill the nxt point....
Heres the nxt point, when they transform! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i wana scream!! its so nice and drtailaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....
thank god that i finally gan got to watch it!!
Its a happy day...lolx
kla..nid to end this, sory too slp la me...cnt write anymore...

Tired....cz had eaten many durians..lolx

I'm writing this at late nite...
where no one is around...
But God...XD
Amen..

Its all about THe King of fruit! "Durian"

Manyak Chun Whe!!

This is how a rotten Durian looks like...XD

going home...down from the Durian mountain...Tired...T_T

Baby bird...jz born..abandon by their mom care by us people..lolx.

The painting of God....View from the mountain...

Another random durian...

The two big basket of Tongs where fill up with Durian earten by humans...alive~~

fill untill there is no more to fill....

The tool use to defeat many of the Kings.."The Parang Knife"

The mountain...
Today was a hapi day...i always hapi when i sing this song.."hapi day hapi day when Jesus wash your sins away" it reminds me of the Blessing that my heavenly father is giving me abandonly..XD

Hppy Happy...cz saw one HOT HOT chick!!

Durian with Hot chick!!

Imagine That!!

and the thing is She is Smokin'!!

Wohoo!!
but sadly cnt show u guy how hot is she...

How selfish am i....

when i was thinking of dooing other things with my computer,
suddenly this stucks me..."she" pop out in my mind...
after i dump her...her life become a mess compared to last time...today,
I read her blog..its all baout our pass and presents,
i really am damn shit and selfish...
i left her....because i thought that was the way things are...
but when i read her blog..i finally know how it feels like to loss some body that you love...
and plan to get married with...
it started two years...
it when good at first but later on...
my love for her turns to an intention of getting not lonely and the love that she provide....
i take it for granted, without realising the feeling that she had for me...
every promise that i gave was a lie with a motive....
in order to get her to notice me i lied...
in order to get more love i lied again...
and lying kills....in order not to let people know what sin have we done to God or to people...
I lied....
white lies,
black lies...
whatever lies is a sin...and God cannot tolerate sin...
Back to my selfishness....
i doesn't care how she fells but I just want to reach my motive...
Many times i hate myself...
i hate myself for being not good enough...
not perfect enough to care or to take care of someone that i love or things that i ought to achive...
theres is this incident,
where,i say alot of good words and things that make that person fell more comfortable being with me...and all of that is Bullshit, its fake...i hate myself....
Its useless to say sorry if it has occured...
for that i cannot forgive myself...until now....
I'm still lying....
lying...
and lying....